A recent topic reminded me of one of my weakest links with the program, and that is my reluctance to socialize and/or to reach out. When I’m in a good place, I’ll happily go to breakfast with the mob or hang around after a meeting, but it’s much more common to find me scurrying out as soon as the meeting is over.

Someone recently asked me why, after a few years, I still didn’t have a sponsor. Well, mostly it’s because I’m sure a sponsor would try to make me do something. Anything. And there I’d be, out there. No thank you. I have made myself a promise (and shared it with others so it’ll be harder for me to avoid it) that if I relapse, I’ll get a sponsor on the way back in. Assuming I make it back.

Wow, this is depressing…